My Birthday, Forty Reasons to Celebrate: HATE

Celebrate! Celebrate! Dance to the Music!

I have a yearly ritual. an annual if you will, to sit drink a fine coffee while listening to music and reflect on the year before and where my life has led. I do this on my birthday and have since my early 20s. It is a meditation of victories and losses, more so with correct decisions and mistakes.

Today, I turn 40. Though that is difficult for many of you to believe considering my infantile and adolescent behavior at times. It happens to be the truth. I am officially middle aged (why they call it that I do not know as most do not make it to the ripe age of 80 anyway) and can start my mid-life crisis. Where are the hookers and blow?

In any case, I want to thank the heavens I am still here as it was a tumultuous year. I had many trials and tribulations this year that I will not bore you with, and there is reason for that...you have your own. Instead I will expound on what I have learned this year.

#1. The biggest thing I learned this year is that you can never judge someone by the friends they keep. Though my opinion may be low of someone, this does not mean that all of that someones friendships are to be wary of. The reason I mention this is that I judged, very correctly I might add, a particular woman to be deceitful, narcissistic and to be ever so blunt, a cheating uncaring whore. I kept my distance from her and her friends purposely to avoid any of her chaos. However, I had misjudged her acquaintances wrongly and ended up falling in love with the most beautiful wonderful woman I never thought in my life could exist: @TheAlphaPussy.

Now the deceitful whore in question, while continuing to throw her vows in the garbage disposal daily was not happy about my lady and I seeing one another. She only introduced us you see, because she thought I would never be interested in "a fat girl". She never knew me at all, only her twisted idealistic fantasy of the perfect man whom she will never have. 

Imagine the Evil Queen from Snow White and you have a great idea, a "Queen Bitch", if you will as she self describes herself proudly. The reason I even mention this woman of ill repute is that it was originally to her urging and speaking of her friend @TheAlphaPussy that brought us together, on my birthday...one year ago. After which jealousy reared it's already ugly head in celebration of ignorance and lack of virtue as the Queen Bitch months later wished ill upon our burgeoning relationship. By then it was too late as my mate, my Goddess and I were falling truly, madly, deeply in love.   She told friends that she could not wait until we "crash and burn" and was gleeful at the hope of a miserable joyless end. We all know people like this. People who cannot truly be happy for others good fortune whether it be in the realms of love or career or even financial windfall. Many call them "haters". It goes deeper than that. It is a person that cannot or will not find love or success in their own life, cannot find a feeling of self worth and therefore, lashes out at anyone and everyone damning them for finding that which they seek.

Throughout my life I have almost vampirically fed on peoples negativity. Much like The Emperor in Star Wars: Return of the Jedi, I feed off the hate and turn it into motivation and cheer. These people are useless in every sense of that word. From bullies to just the simple nay-sayers, always remember the only opinion that truly matters is your very own. When you die, no one goes with you.

So a debt of thanks to the Queen Bitch who brought my Goddess @TheAlphaPussy into my life. Sending me a picture of her behind for my Birthday to cheer me up set things in motion and we are almost a year together. I have never, and will never have a better gift than the love of that woman. It took me 39-40 years to feel blessed in this way, but I can tell you the wait is worth it.

#2. Celebrate the hate! Celebrate the negativity! It means that you are someone who threatens another. It means that you are envied and not only a worthwhile member of society but one to be renowned. It means that you have garnered attention. It can mean you are on the right track in your life, or simply that you have assets and talents others do not. It may even mean, that you have found true love. 



And to all of my friends who have followed me this past year and before, you are incredible. I thank you all for your support, your indulgence, for when you heartily agree and when you vehemently disagree. You who follow have made me a better person by your friendship.

Thank you. Be ever safe, and well. 

~PW